Just had a dream where I was on a old yellow school bus With Tani, who is a woman two years younger than me I’m 45. She’s married with three kids that go to church with she was sitting in my seat. Her oldest son was in the front of the bus and her husband was also in the front of the bus, we were going somewhere we were chatting and then we were trying to figure out where we’re going and ended up that we were going to my grandma’s house in Alaska from 30 years ago when I was a kid my grandpa and mygrandma have since passed.. I personally have held unspoken feelings for her for awhile , my heart just yearns for her. In the waking world, I’ve often wondered if she feels the same , with the very small and subtle looks I receive during church. because of her marriage I don’t say anything or make too much of our interactions. We do hug upon seeing eachother .her eyes light up and she usually comes and sits down next to me to talk after church sometimes . She has also touched my knee on a few occasions during humorous banter. I’ve also made an effort to tone down my interaction with her at church by completing ignoring her and she tends to reach out . Even wearing a tight formal dress one Sunday and looking at me directly and smiling to make sure I saw. I feel maybe the bus is my unconscious wondering where this is going. When we were sitting next to eachother and her son and husband started to move back could indicate we feel we are under a watchful eye. Her other two children are too young to be aware of this.
Dreams often serve as a reflection of our subconscious thoughts, feelings, and unresolved issues. Your dream encompasses several key themes that can help in interpretation:
The School Bus: Buses typically symbolize a collective journey or transition in life. Since it's an old yellow school bus, it may suggest nostalgia or a return to your childhood, indicating a longing for simpler times or innocence, particularly related to your upbringing or family.
Tani: Your feelings for Tani seem to be central to the dream. The fact that she was sitting in your seat might indicate that she has taken a significant place in your life or thoughts, perhaps suggesting a desire for a deeper connection. Her presence triggers memories of the past, and her being married introduces a complex dynamic of unfulfilled love and the internal struggle between desire and constraint.
The Journey to Grandma’s House: The destination being your grandma's house in Alaska evokes a sense of nostalgia and longing for familial roots. It might symbolize comfort and safety, as well as unresolved feelings towards family and the past. This journey may mirror your emotional landscape regarding Tani, suggesting a desire to explore your feelings more deeply.
Interactions with Tani: The interactions you have with her in the dream, such as chatting and being aware of her family, reflect your real-life dynamics and the subtle tensions present in your interactions. The watchful eye of her family members signifies possible societal or moral constraints surrounding your feelings—especially considering her marriage.
Feelings of Yearning and Uncertainty: Your unexpressed feelings for Tani and the uncertainties surrounding them seem to be a major theme of the dream. The bus journey may symbolize your unconscious exploration of where these feelings could lead and whether they could evolve into something more or remain unresolved.
Awareness of Boundaries: The presence of her husband and children in the dream signifies your awareness of boundaries and the importance of respecting Tani's current situation. This tension may manifest in the dream as a feeling of cautiousness or limitation in expressing your true feelings.
Overall, this dream reflects a complex emotional landscape filled with nostalgia, longing, and the challenges of unfulfilled desires. It suggests that you are grappling with your feelings for Tani while also being aware of your personal boundaries and the implications of pursuing those feelings. It might be helpful to reflect on how you can navigate these emotions while respecting both your feelings and her situation.